August 15, 2011 by Amy B
Why do I always suck on Mondays after long runs? Please tell me I’m not the only one.
I didn’t even get the cross training in yesterday. I think I should feel better than this. I felt like my legs were going nowhere and I couldn’t get into a decent rhythm.
I also stepped on the scale to see the number go up two pounds from the day I got back from Detroit. Am I really eating so much as to merit this much weight gain in less than a week? I know I’m not eating like a bird but I do NOT think this seems right. Of course, time of month has an effect on that number for me (ugh) but seriously, it’s just depressing.
A friend of mine recently blogged about his fitness goals, which made me think of my own. I will be the first to admit I’m really bummed out with myself for gaining back most of the weight I lost last summer. Not only because my clothes don’t fit, but because I know it has an effect on my running times. It’s just EASIER to run when you’re lighter.
I like to play stupid hypothetical games with myself when I’m running without headphones (couldn’t find where I threw the shuffle yesterday while I was in my cleaning frenzy). I thought, if given the choice of being at my goal weight or thinner but unable to run, say, a mile, or my current state of 15-20 extra pounds but able to, you know, outrun most of the people I know?
I’d stay fat. Well, you know what I mean.
I wanted very much to get back to my marathon weight last year BEFORE this year’s race. that’s less than two months from now. I don’t know if that’s realistic. But I’m just accepting the fact that right now, this is the body I’ve got. I’m going to focus more on my running goals (because dammit, I really want to run a PR this year). I’m still going to work on my diet but I’m not going to make a particular number on the scale my top priority. We’ll see how it goes. I didn’t gain all of this weight overnight, so I’m certainly not going to lose it overnight.